Goodbye, My Boy

Sometimes I thought I hear him in the living hall when i'm in my bedroom or bathroom...

..like today.


I went down and only then I realised, he's not here anymore...

Rest in Peace, the most beautiful golden haired boy I've ever seen.

I just missed him lots today although it's been months since his departure.. don't know why.

RIP Boy Boy: 09/03/09

What have I gotten myself into...

**Gasp GASP Gasppppppp..... OMG... oMg......OH.. oH ..oh.. OHhh...**


No.. it's not the sound of orgasm...


It's just me almost dying out of breath from training for my Mount Kinabalu trip.
What was I doing thinking that I was fit enough to go??? I had no idea at all.
Just one trip up to Batu Caves is enough to make me feel like I'm having cardiac arrest. Look at the picture, it's only like 4 or 5 floors of stairs, when did i ever become so unfit?



Oteokeyo? How to go Mount Kinabalu in another two weeks time liddat? i seriously dunno.

Please god, let me make it to the top.. please let me have my best birthday celebration ever. I don't wish for presents, cakes or $$$, I just want to reach the top of Mount Kinabalu this year ...
(and to go UK and Australia as well).

Life-Sux-But-I'm-Trying-My-Best-To-Deal-With-It

Well I'm sure happy moments come once in a while so life doesn't sux that much but I actually don't feel entirely proud of my "happiest moment" so far. I want something more out of life. Or maybe I will never be satisfied when something better and happier comes along. If I wasn't asked a simple yet meaningful question the other day, I wouldn't have known that I have live such a meaningless life. "What is the happiest moment in your life?". Such a simple question but it bothers me.

AND RIGHT NOW AT THIS MOMENT TODAY THIS WEEK THIS MONTH, LIFE SUX REAL BAD.
I have been told that I will get an early confirmation and in line to get a promotion, so how come I feel like crap? Wait, I know!! BECAUSE I don't want to get an early confirmation and I don't want to be in a managerial level in this company. I want to leave EARLY not give a 2 months notice!!!
AND F**K HR for trying to analyze my characters and all the "observations" that she get based on one phone call! A load full of crap. I'm so mad. I was thinking of giving a real sarcastic reply but I realise I don't need to waste my time on such nonsense. The fact that HR did not even ask for my letter of offer back and didn't realise my offer letter went "missing" after 2 months is pure craziness. They only realise it after the auditors question them and only come asking me do I have a copy of it because her copy went missing. PLEASE LAR.. you didn't even had a copy in the first place cos you never ask for it and I never gave it back .Simple as that. And so I don't really believe all those shit stuff that you try to sell to me cos I ain't buying.

Why do I have such bad luck in finding the right job??

On MC today...and a picture.

My office had a so-called halloween party last friday and everyone was required to wear a costume to work.... and I wore a baseball gal costume.. last minute arrangement so I tried to assemble one from my existing wardrobe . Thank god i got a bat. Don't laugh ..here's the horror... ------------>>>

I wanted to wear something scary to work that day .. that's the whole point of halloween right? Something like from Adam's family ..but I don't appreciate the police stopping me on the way to work ... at least I got a costume..better than my colleagues who wore only hairbands..

I promise to show my friends my pic ...hence this crappy entry ... not feeling well so I won't write much ... till then, take care my friends...especially SY ..rest ur hands ya!!

Demotivated

First of all, thank you to those who told me how nice all those pictures that I took in Krabi. I’m kinda proud about my lil small talent there although there’s some people who dice me when I get all fussy about my pictures. You know who you are right? Hehehe. I seriously got nagged about it. ;((

Anyway, I’m feeling totally demotivated right now. It feels like 4 days in paradise and now back in HELL. The dungeon of darkness. Surrounded by evil presence ready to prey upon unsuspecting creature. Wolves camouflaging as human trying to eat up innocent girl.Witches trying to lure people into eating poisoned apples. Shitty shitty place to be in.

I shall sleep it off and hope for a better tomorrow and lots of passion to get through another day.

(; _ ;)

ohh... why that arrogant fellow won?? anyone but him.. cos' he's such a cocky fellow!

ohh... my heart felt so sad for LCW!! what happened to him tonight??왜 요? 왜? 왜?

He wasn't playing like himself just now. I just can't believe it.

Sigh... what to do with this T-shirt leh?

한국말 (Korean Language)

I've finally manage to finish learning the very basic of 한국말 and I truly enjoy it ..though I wish I could actually converse more ... but right now, as I said it, still bery bery basic. So slow and unnatural.
I could actually pick up the language faster, but due to the hectic nature of my current job, I have very little time to do my revision. The worst job in the world. I just hope that I don't fail my exam. Sometimes, when I called my korean customers and tried to speak in hangukmal, I would get tongue-tied and my mind will just go blank and it's back to English again. Where to find a korean 친구 (friend) here??

I'm going for a vacation soon. Location unknown. Date unknown. Right now, I just feel like anywhere it's fine..as long as I can get away. I'm feeling pretty adventurous ..to the point where I want to open my map, close my eye and point my finger, and whatever place my finger points to, that's my destination. Take bus, take train, walk ...whatever I don't care. Budget hotel I don't care. Jungle, leeches I don't care. Too bad though my chingus are not feeling so adventurous at the moment.

Anyway, as I was looking at some holiday destination brochures in the mamak today, suddenly there's one hand that came out from nowhere from my back and started pointing at the brochures that I was looking at. I thought it was someone I know but when I turned around, it was a blardee stranger! WHAT THE HELL..SCARED ME SHITLESS!. Super Weird Guy. Then I just threw the brochure over to my friend. Sorry man. He just stood there behind me for ages washing his hand in the washbasin. WTH .. (^_^??) . It's weirder than my Chap Goh Mei experience!! Otteoke yo!!

Meori Apayo.

Meori Apayo = head ache in korean..



One day when i'm not tired and having headache like now, I'm going to find out how to post my entry in hangeul(korean).

Meori Apayo.. that's what my new job is. I learn so much and nothing at all at the same time. Confuse?? That's why i'm having massive apayo.

It's really very interesting to watch...like watching a TVB Hong Kong drama ....cept that it's not so fun being caught in the middle of it all.

3 weeks now.. and I really feel like flying the white flag everyday. I'm tough but not that tough.
I think all my complaining here is making bapak feel guilty .. but you shouldn't be because if I don't accept this job offer, I might keep wondering and regret my decision. I'm glad I make this decision because I've actually met a lot of interesting people ..and I think i've already learn so much. Everyone complain about their job so don't feel bad kay??

Okay now.. let's move on to more complaining.. seriously, if I know the MASSIVE amount of work I have to do, I would have ask for a much HIGHER PAY!!!! My job title should be MULTI PURPOSE EXECUTIVE. So bloody complicated and everything is in a mess... and I have to work ohhhh so late. And because everything is in a mess and I have to remember so many blardee things, I kept forgetting things. Make sense?? Like today, I know I have korean class but I couldn't remember at all what time my class is. It's the same time for weeks now ..but I forgotten it. Say.. serious meori apayo or not?? I just can't imagine myself surviving this.

Last time, I don't take my calls from my handphone because I'm too bloody lazy but now, I don't take calls because I'm simply too00000 busy. Chingus sekalian.. please forgive me. I even have not blog for weeks now. Today, i get to blog because i'm waiting to see online whether my underpay salary is in or not and that stupid site chose this time to do site maintenance...blardee hell.

Chap Goh Mei

My first time throwing tangerines into the sea during Chap Goh Mei and the worst thing unimaginable happened! My friends and I saw a guy(we believed he's cuckoo) fished out MY tangerine, read MY message, laughed alone, and pocketed MY tangerine. Why oh why of alllllll the tangerines in the sea... WHY MINE???? Suey(unlucky) or not??

Darn it.

Weird lar..

Something super weird happened in my office this morning like maybe X-Files weird... but I just don't want to write it here.. those who are super curious just have to call me.. just like those who called and sms-ed after reading crossroads . So impatient and kepo but I'm truly touched and grateful for those who called that day. Even one ex-colleague must have some supernatural power because he called me right immediately after I walked out from the office and i haven't even heard from him for so long now.


I got to know that another colleague just gave in her letter of resignation this morning. She told me before that she's going to resign but not THIS early. I hear from the grapevine that a few is leaving as well. So maybe it kinda prompted that weird incident.


Well, one thing for sure is I'm going to miss my colleagues. After all, we share a lot of great and awful times together. I will even miss my office water dispenser (i don't know why, but the water there taste even better than the one from home..SERIOUS!).


Anyway, wish me all the best ..and luck.. in finding a good highpaying job that i will like. (the one that can afford me to travel thrice a year, buy LV bags, buy a house, eat lots of korean/japanese food ..etc). Aja Aja Fighting!!!

No Picking Up in a Park..

I was pretty busy last week .. not sure with what.. so was lazy in updating this blog..and I was paranoid about something. However, I decided to write about it .. don't really care if he has already manage to find my blog. Okay, if you've (the guy from the park) somehow manage to find my blog,..read on.

Just a piece of advice.. if a girl refuse to give you her number, then she really really doesn't want to give you her number. Furthermore with you being a stranger..I just met you..so don't push it ler. And then just because I give you my MSN ID .. doesn't mean I want you adding me in Friendster and such. This is where I got paranoid..because if he can find my friendster account, he could probably find my blog. So if you're reading this, please don't feel offended.. just writing what I feel and think.

( me.... hiding...from all the weird ppl in the world)

Pissed off!

Situation at work today... actually yesterday since it's almost 1am now....



As soon as I reach my office, I got a call from this crazy woman (see my hall of shame). Crazy b***h. She kept barking and barking and barking non stop. Wahlauehhhh... early in the morning.. damn suey(unlucky). My whole day was just awful after that...like dominoes effect. Imagine.. I don't even have any appetite to eat during lunch.. ME WHO ALMOST NEVER NOT THINK ABOUT FOOD! Not even spotting a good looking guy during lunch can lift up my mood.

I came back from work still frowning and just had to clean something.. so I washed my car. And then bapak nick save the day by calling to help me buy korean drama dvd!! Yehh!!! kamsahamnida.



p/s: sorry for those ugly drawings... i just need to draw to channel my emotions.Really bad for someone who scored A1 for art. :P. I think I drew the dog too cute to represent that crazy woman though. She's not cute at all.

Happy New Year 2008!!

It's a new year.. I'm wishing that this year I'll be granted with better luck. Definitely hope this new year will be muchhhhhh better than the last. Last year was well... how should i put it .. more misfortune than fortune. To all my chingus, I hope with this new year, everyone will be blessed with a better life. For me, I hope I will be blessed with a better job, better health, better luck, a lot more cash(so i can travel more and shop more!), many many wonderful experience to come.. .. and most importantly, just being happy.

I'm sick at the moment.. fever, flu and cough.. so it's not a really good start. *cross my fingers -please be a good year*.A way my body is telling me that I'm overworked .... (and so underpaid). Or just my body telling me that I'm getting old??Eshhh.. definitely not.. being 18 is not old yet. ahahaa.

A few things happened in the office today.. which was pretty interesting. My colleagues caught my two other colleagues eating lunch together. *cheh...everyone must be thinking.. normal wat colleagues eating lunch together!*. None of my business really .. but seriously NONE OF US could imagine them eating lunch together...and one of them is actually on leave. It's like having snow in malaysia.

After that, a different colleague called up the office to tell us that he drove his car into a hole.. god knows wat kind of hole is that.. and need a tow truck to pull it out. When it was around 5 something, I heard him calling the office to say he won't be able to make it into office because the tow truck isn't there yet. When I left the office, ..just at my first traffic light... I saw him .. and his car in a perfectly good condition on the opposite direction away from my office. I believe I wasn't delusional .. because I haven't consume any flu medicine yet.

And then just as I reached home, I got to know that a girl that I knew of got cheated from her fiance. She flew over from Australia with her fiance and stayed at his family home here in M'sia for the purpose of choosing a wedding date. Instead of choosing a wedding date, apparently, the guy then clear all of their money from their joint account, refuse to take her call, spent lavishly on the credit card, kick her out from his house and refuse to let her in and threaten her if she were to go over to his house. Then she had no choice but to go to a relative house and stayed there. And the guy had the cheek to send her luggage and passport ...by TAXI!! Just pass everything to the taxi driver to send it over. Luckily the taxi driver was honest enough to send her stuff over. And when she checked her purse, all her AUD money was gone as well. Actually previously, they had bought the return flight ticket back to Australia. And when she checked now, the guy had already CANCELLED HER flight ticket as well!!! Come on.. at least let the poor girl go back to her family in Australia. What is happening to the world??? I can't believe the guy could treat his fiancee that way and Is love so blind that the girl can't see the guy for what he is before any of this happens??


Well, someone asked me to write my new year resolutions .... there's too many .. i gotta think about them first.. and definitely after I'm feeling much better. Cheersss.

Happy Belated Birthday Tan Sri!!!!

Yang Berhormat Tan Sri,

I sincerely apologise that I forgotten to wish you on your birthday. I was looking at my calendar today when all of sudden, I remember. It's Tan Sri's birthday days ago. hehe. So here I present you your virtual birthday cake ...... tada tada..



See ...one whole death-by-chocolate cake for you. Enjoy ya!

Aisay...so err...when is birthday boy going to buy us a meal???? :P